You may be wondering and asking by now…, “buhay pa kaya si nikki, di na nag-b-blog yun ha?!” hahaha buhay na buhay! huminto lang po mag-blog. At bakit? Silent lang muna ako… I don’t want to even talk about what’s in my mind… Parang di ako no? Well, I gotta admit masarap manahimik, magmunimuni, tapos manahimik lang ulit ng walang iniisip. But the truth is, whenever I’m alone I always find myself just talking to God —anything under the sun. In other words, meron pa rin pala akong iniisip hahaha. But talking to God is very relaxing. It energizes and refreshes me in ways I can’t explain. I guess, it’s what we call “being still”…
You know what’s more funny now? I stop reading books for awhile — I mean christian theological books that I used to devour everytime I had a break or during vacations. Para talagang di ako no? I know tataas ang kilay ng mga nakakakilala sa akin in a deeper level. Well, I stop reading those books for awhile not because I don’t like reading it at all. Nakatabi lang muna sila sa personal library ko at naghihintay na basahin muli pag handa na ako. hehehe Hmmmmm, wanna know why? Wala lang, I just want to read and learn the Bible myself. Medyo napagod akong ngatain at aralin ang mga nangata at naaral na ng mga very good and known authors ng mga librong ito. It’s about time to learn and discover new things about God and about life myself. Nakakasawa din pala yung lagi ka na lang may quotations from other people sa lahat ng mga lessons mo sa buhay at kay God. Masarap din pala na masakit din kapag you’re learning it yourself through God’s help and grace of course. Kasi very personal ang mga lessons. Mahirap ipaliwanag pero very precious pala ito. Kaya siguro nahinto din ako sa pag b-blog dahil hindi ko masulat ang lahat ng mga precious thoughts, lessons, realizations, painful truths, etc….., sa buhay ko. Sorry, if you find me strange right now…hehehe
Anyway, I’m speaking my mind right now again, don’t you think? I guess, I may be ready to speak again, or maybe not… But one thing i know, it’s not just my mind —’cuz this time I’m beginning to speak what’s in my heart as well……….
